Sunday, May 29, 2011

Just another wonderful rainy weekend on the boat with two dogs...

Yep, I  took the dogs to the boat on Friday - after I attempted to nap - every phone solicitation company decided to call me just an hour into my three hour sleep.  The DTE company called to warn me they are coming to look at the meter and wanted my dogs in.  They usually call about six times - it's a recording.  I hang up. 

Then the bank called to see if I wanted to do something with my money - like invest it or move it around.  I told them to stop calling me in the day, as I will MOVE my money right out of their bank if they don't let me sleep.  This was the fourth such call in less than two weeks.  They must have nothing to do but watch my bank accounts for me.  I told them to stop asking me, or I will move my money totally out of their bank.  Seriously.  I need to sleep.

Then, a lawn cutting company called to see how my lawn was.  I decided to get up, take a quick shower, and pack up the dogs.  No one calls me at the boat to ask about my lawn.  I had to stop one place and left the dogs a total of six minutes in the car all alone.  Boomer was in the front seat, driver side of course, and Gracie was half in the front, with back half still in back.  Took a bit of coaxing to to get them back into the back seat.  My day was going down hill fast.

Once we got to the boat, and unloaded all the stuff - enough for two weekends, but I had to pack for cold and wet, as well as hot and humid.  Those are the options for boat weekends.  Then as I got the last load on, it started to rain.  It has rained since, until this am, and now it is sunny!!

I am not complaining, but today we have to go home!  I know, we could stay overnight again, but we need to get up early on Monday - the actual holiday Memorial Day, to go to a parade.  Yep, my husband, my friend, my soul mate is officiating at a parade, you know, putting a wreath on a grave site as part of the parade.  It's in Keego Harbor.  Then I will nap, in order to get a head start on my week to work.  I am so excited to go to work on a holiday just so someone else won't have to get paid OT.  Yep, because I won/t.  Sounds fair.

I will probably get more written today while I do laundry, and then tomorrow when I finish laundry.  My husband (etc) goes away on Wednesday or Thursday and will be gone a week, so I'll get a lot done.  And have a busy weekend.  Leo is coming for a week (grand puppy extraordinaire) and niece to spend the weekend scrapping.  So, I'll be busy, and happy.  I will miss my husband (etc) but am filling the days...

D M Wiseman, dizzy due to the boat movement, and wet, writing out of our covered deck, published author

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Never give yourself a deadline that you can't possibly make - kind of day...

I really need to get the book edited, but its Thursday, and I work tonight - then I will be on the boat for three days before I go back to work again.  I am definitely bringing the computer to the boat - that way I can write as I sit on the deck, watching the other boaters as they frantically try to get the most of their weekend.  It happens every weekend. 

We go out on Friday's and my husband, my friend and my soul mate cleans the boat up before the place gets busy, and then we watch the people clean their boats.  We love the drama that goes on.  I love to read the names of the boats - like the boat is named Captain Hook, and is from Never Never Land.  The actual captain is retired, and only has one hand.  I love the real names.  I named our boat - its great for my husband's (etc) blood pressure.  Just being on the boat makes the stress fall away, so our boat is named Rx:  Hullistic Medicine.  The dingy is named Refill.  Get it?  Well, we like the name.

There are other names that are poetic, some nautical, and others make no sense.  I make up stories for those kind.  I really like the stories that I make up for the people as well.  There is only time to rest and relax when we are on the boat.  I will write, and edit and get that book done - before the summer really gets going.  I really want the 'done' feeling again.  I really like the 'done' feeling.

In the mean time, I have to get motivated, get dressed, get my spa day in - maybe that will motivate me.  Something has to give.  I am dragging my butt here.  And sadly, I know why.  I truly hate my job.  There I have said it aloud (well wrote it down kind of metaphorically aloud) and I can take a deep breath about it.  I have to wait 6 months to try for a new job, and then I will at least try to make my self feel better about my self.  I need to get out of this hole that I am in...  It's a self dug hole, and I, myself and me, am the only one that needs to get myself out of the dark cramped hole that is my life.

I am not saying that I am really low, I just need to get myself some self confidence.  I like the 'done' feeling, even though no one buys my books but my sisters.  I still feel validated.  I really want the feelings that I got when I was in school, college, not high school, the feeling that I am accomplishing something.  A chapter in a book, a project, a test, and then a course completed with an A.  Then the first degree, the second, then my Master's degree and along with it, move up in the food chain with the knowledge and experience that I had.  I am backwards now, and I hate it.  I need to get it myself again

I will take the computer to the boat, to write, edit, and then spend a good amount of time to work on my resume and look for another job.  One that makes me feel better about myself,  Me Myself and I.  I will do this, I will be better, I really need to do this.

D M Wiseman, feeling a bit ridiculous and still a published author...

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Boat in the slip, out in the sun and dogs on the way...

After spending a good four hours walking around and looking at all kinds of stamps, learning how to make new cards, making the coolest cards, buying things to make cool cards - with my sister Pat, Carol, my famous sister in law Holly, and Penny her mom - we were at the Southfield Pavilion at the Civic Center Park area in Southfield, at the 'Keep Stamping' Show.  We were all learning and buying, and planning the new ideas for cards, tags and bags.  This was one fun show!

After doing that, I picked up the dogs - and my clothes, along with a few things for the puppies - and I drove off to the marina - Boomer was an old sea dog regarding this, was excited to go, and just went running down the dock, up the tide stairs and onto the boat.  Gracie, she was not so good at this.  She fussed about the dock.  And when we got to the tide stairs, she balked.  There was NO WAY she was going up the stairs.  We ended up putting a piece of carpet across the stairs, so she wouldn't see that she was going up stairs.  then getting down the first stairs to the salon - I was exhausted.  She finally got it down pat, and relaxed about the stairs, the movement of the boat - and that we were not going to leave her.

Spent the night on the boat, and both my husband, my fried, my soul mate - we felt good about her on the boat.  I was worried about how she would do.  There still is the issue on whether or not over the Fourth of July will be the end of the good times.  She goes nuts in thunder storms, and the fireworks on the Fourth - well time will tell.  I am not so sure how it will be, but we are going to attimept it.  I don't want to mess up our weekends that we spend on the boat - she has to be able to function out on the boat.    Boomer is really good on the boat, but he has been going there since he was still a little puppy.  I have hope.

I was going to get up this morning, write a few chapters, and then nap this afternoon before I have to work.  So, that didn't happen.  One, I slept in a bit, didn't bring the computer to the boat, and no napping as laundry needs to be done.  I will hit the caffeine soon, and then get on with dinner, before I go on to work.

D M Wiseamn, getting my sea legs back, dealing with Gracie, and work, published author...

Friday, May 20, 2011

So tired I can't think straight..kind of Friday...

After working four ten hour shifts (oh - ok, I'll tell the truth - two twelves, an eleven, and a ten) in a row; I took my sister to the U of M hospital and found out she needs to boast her blood counts, before they can give her more chemo to kill what she just boasted.  Makes sense, sure.

So, I am just getting the feeling to sleep, I was too keyed up and then I had to eat and calm down, so now, I am getting ready to get to sleep.  I probably will wake up early anyway, going to bed before it's quite dark yet.  I am such a wuss.  I am, really not - I usually stay up long, but tonight - I'm done.

D M Wiseman, self proclaimed wuss, and yet still stayed up enough to write that she couldn't write, published author...

Sunday, May 15, 2011

I'm writing again and it feels good...

Alright!  I woke up with a headache from the 48 plus hours that it has been raining and decided to concentrate on writing SOMETHING today.  First, I had to run to the store for dog food - the puppies were almost out of dog food, and the cookies were gone.  It was a necessary evil - to go to Sam's Club on a rainy Sunday.  My advise - don't run out of cookies on a Sunday... it was a zoo, more than a zoo, a monster zoo!

So, we - my husband, my friend, my soul mate and I came in to NO POWER.  Yep, thank God we have a generator or I couldn't watch a TV program about "Aftermath:  Population Zero" - when all the people are gone from Earth while I write.  I don't think I could have lived without watching this show.

Any way, the generator is making our electricity and I am writing, doing laundry, as well as tossing the new toys (they needed them - really they did!) for the puppies.  All is well, I'm writing and all is well!  Hopefully, the story line is the way it should go, because that is the direction it is going...

D M Wiseman, happy in the rain, with gasoline made electricity and writing again, published author...

Saturday, May 14, 2011

It's Saturday and I am behind again...

I worked the last few nights, didn't get much sleep, and I didn't even turn on the computer.  I finally got to turn it on after lunch today (once I woke up!) and now I realize that I am way way behind in all my goals.

I didn't finish the book I was writing, and so I failed in my quest to get the sixth book on my publishing site www.smashwords.com by the end of April.  I was going to be working on the seventh book by now.  Not happening.  BUT, I got THE email from The Light and Sound site www.nanowrimo.com where I first wrote my book and won the November 2010 contest - and they are doing a summer contest!!!  Yes, the motivation I need.  The email reved me up!

I will start one of the books that I have outlined in my thoughts.  I want to be a winner again!  I want to write a novel that is more than 50,000 words in 30 days - in one month (not sure which month it is going to be) that will be the drive I need to get another book out there.  I want to finish the one I am procrastinating about finishing, and then WRITE the next one that will be the seventh!!!  It is the best way to get me fired up again.  I know I can do it, if there is a national goal out there!

I could even start on another one, if I get going like I did with the first book, 'Bryn's Family Plan' - I wrote that one in 8 days, so I could, if I was motivated enough, write two in the month... but I will be realistic and set the goal for the one.  Then, I will amend the goal, if needed.  I momentarily thought about putting the one I am not done with yet, aside, but I need to finish it.  If I can't get it going, I will put it aside, then finish it later.  Better to do it that way then.  I keep going back and forth about it, so in the next few days, I will make up my mind, and let you know.  As soon as I know, that is.

I started to re-read the last chapters, and realized it really is good, just that I am stuck in the story and I need to get my head around it - I need to figure out where to take the story line.  I wish someone could just give me a push, because I am really stuck.  Just give me a week, I will get it going again.  And I will finish it.  Before the contest...maybe...or put it aside and start anothe, which ever...

D M Wiseman, behind, but re-energized by the contest coming up, going to finish what I started, published author

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

At long last - insomnia has hit again...

I am awake, and its after 2am in the morning.  I only had about 3 hours of sleep last night - or really this morning, today, and I am tired, but not able to fall asleep.  I could really use the sleep.  I need to sleep, because I need to get some - before I go back to work again tomorrow.  I need to get into some kind of habit, a routine, or something before I can't.  It isn't an outrageous need.  It's just sleep.

I got so bad yesterday, needing sleep that I drank some dew - and I haven't had any for over 3 weeks.  It tasted so good too.  But I don't want to get hooked again, on the dew.  It was my down fall - the addiction to the dew.  I love the dew.  But, it causes an abnormal heart rate, with funky beats.  So, I needed to cut back, and take a break from the whole caffeine thing.  Not that I wanted to!  I love the dew, love the taste, and working midnights - love the caffeine.

I really need to write as well, need to stay up and write, so it's ok to have the insomnia, but honestly - I really need to get some sleep...

D M Wiseman, yawning, but not able to fall asleep, published author...

Monday, May 9, 2011

Well, I am officially messed up again in my sleeping patterns...

I worked the last two weeks on midnights, so I have my sleep patterns down - kind of.  But, then today, I had to go on a day shift meeting for 8 hours, so I am off on my sleep again.  I was NOT tired last night, so couldn't sleep, and then today yawned through the entire meeting.  I swear I almost fell asleep in the lecture.  Thank God we were 'inneracting' during the meeting, and I was the one who had to 'transport' the messages.  It entailed moving around a lot.  I wouldn't have made it otherwise.

I feel that my pattern, when I chose to, can be screwed around with, but not when someone else does it.  I need my sleep, my way.  Just like when I want to write, I need to write.  When I finally got my second wind during the lecture, I got a thought - you know one of those thoughts, and I started writing down stuff on my note pad - in long hand!  So, I will write these notes down so I can read it later - my hand writing is not the best... OK, it's really bad, but usually I can read it my self.  So, any way, I will record my little notes, and get on THAT story that came into my head during a work meeting, next.

Right now, watching the season and final episodes of Stargate Universe - yeah, I'm a Sci Fi nut - and listening to the puppies both snoring... while my husband, my friend, my soul mate, is falling asleep in his chair.  All is good at the W household.  I had all my kids (S, V with Leo, St and K) over for dinner yesterday, played the dogs in the pond, and had a good day.  I was validated as a mom - they like me.  I love them all.  I got bath scents and a bottle of wine - from St and K, and a corn on the cob thing (it removes the corn from the cob) and a picture from S and V.  I am a happy mom.

D M Wiseman, got another new idea to write and ready to write it, published author...

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Another missed few days and a quick blog to get caught up!

I worked on Thursday, had a nice shift, then slept for a quick bit on Friday before going to watch my wonderful daughter in law to be V, graduate from MSU!!!! Yeah, she was so beautiful, so happy, and now is official grown up!  She starts her new job after she goes to South America - Chile and Argentina, for a semester abroad, then the real world.

On Saturday we were supposed to put the boat into its slip - from the indoor slip to the outdoor slip,  the guy was wheeling it out, and we didn't want to take the chance of bad weather again, before that was finished, so left it in the building for one more week - then move it next weekend.  So, I went grocery shopping, bought a Xyron thing to scrapbook - it was 40% off - can't beat that! a present for myself.  By the way, I got a picture from S and V of them when they were in Jamaica - kissing, with V's leg doing the leg 'pop' thing.  I just love it! 

Then S and V brought Leo over to spend the night, and we are all having dinner - even St and K!  My whole family will be here on Mother's day!  Yeah, the best present ever!

I will write later, after everyone is back home, and we are kind of back to normal.  I really needed this time with my family.  I don't get to see all of them together very often.  We are having bar b que!  It will be a great dinner.  I love pork ribs on the grill...

D M Wiseman, mother of two, almost four, and having a really great day...published author...

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Missed a couple of days, but what a ride!

I worked Monday night, and then came home so tired that I set my alarm all wrong.  How I got up in time was beyond me, as I got up two hours before the set time - and then realized that I should have gotten up then anyway!  I am not sure how I did it...but I was on the road to Mt Pleasant to the Soaring Eagle Casino to attend an ENA conference - you know, for ED nurses and EMS personnel to learn as well as network and all those other buzz words...

I had a good time, as well as learned a lot too.  Like even after having two glasses of wine, and a few margaritas (from a box no less!) I can still play Eureka.  I did really well, even though I hadn't played in a while, but I guess the wine helped, or the lack of sleep - but really, I held my own - and M Most and I did really well beating the two Marks.  It's all in the count - and I wasn't in Vegas, so card counting isn't illegal, and we weren't gambling - LS was and she won big...but I digress...

I learned a lot of good things, met up with all kinds of old friends, met some new ones and really had a nice time.  I missed my husband, my friend, my soul mate - he stayed home with the puppies - who acted like maniacs when I came in the door.  I also had dinner with my wonderful niece on Tuesday night, played video poker before the drunken Eureka game, and really bonded with her - she graduates from CMU on Saturday.  She is such a sweetie.

I also got the best idea yet, for another book.  I will spend the rest of the night putting the thoughts down on paper, and tomorrow work on 'Then Again' that I really need to finish... I really need to do it, I really need to finish it, I really need to...oh, a new idea is so much more fun, but I really need to finish that book...I will do it!!!  Tomorrow, tomorrow I will do it!  Maybe I should write about procrastination, since I am really doing a good a job of it on my own...

D M Wiseman, procrastination queen, getting the job not-done, but still a published author...

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Cropped all yesterday, chillin' and laundry today, before going off to wrok...

I have to do laundry today, in order to go to work tonight.  My week is busy!  Yesterday I had a great time doing the scrapbook thing with my famous sister in law Holly, our friend Michele and mutual friends Paula and Cindy.  Its a pyramid scheme... right there at www.thescrapbookemporium.com

Paula got Holly into scrapbooking along time ago, when Creative Moments first hit the main stream crofters.  Then, Holly got Michele into it, who got Cindy hooked.  I am the latest in the crazed group, just over six months doing cropping thing.  We were having a good time, making pages, playing with new toys and getting going, when we had to break to have Chinese for dinner.  Then, after eleven hours of getting all of our stuff all over our area (mine on the floor, Holly's on the table next to her, Michele and Cindy's all mixed in - Paula just kept buying new paper...) we had to stop, and put it all away, so we could go home.  I have to admit, the weekend crop thing gets more done - you don't have to stop and clean up.  Ha!

Holly is going to 'host' a weekend scrapbook thing - so I will be helping her.  It will be close to home, so her wonderful husband can help cook for the weekend.  Yummy.  We will have a good time planning, as well as hosting the thing.  My sister will come, the party will begin!  In the mean time, I have to get through this week, to get to my regular scheduled schedule...

I work tonight Sunday, tomorrow night, Monday then on Tuesday (after sleeping a little) I go to Soaring Eagle to a conference that is Tuesday and Wednesday.  Thursday, our new furniture is coming to replace the new furniture that we got in November (under six months, and the recliner thingy broke - they are replacing both the chair as well as the couch).  I work again Thursday night, then off until Monday.

Friday night is a great and wonderful night!  V is graduating from MSU !!!  Yeah!  We are going to dinner first, then the ceremony in East Lansing.  It will be very special as this is her Master's.  She starts her new job in June, after a semester in South America.  Saturday, S and V are coming over to spend the weekend to celebrate the Mother's Day weekend with us.  St will be here as well.  Does anybody smell Bar B Que?

So I am not sure when I will get a chance to write this week... Next week, I will be on my every other week schedule of Monday Tuesday Thursday Friday, Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday.  It will be easier when I know when to work, to sleep, to eat, and WRITE!  But for now, I need to do the laundry, then take a nap before I go off to work.

D M Wiseman,   tired, mixed up, and busier than ever, published author...